I wonder what it feels like to be dead, lying in the coffin. What's the feeling of resting me body on satin in a container with a lid over me for as long as the world exists. What is the sensation like to be buried underground with the stench of wet soil and dead leaves saturating my coffin.

I am curious to know what it is like to lose every ounce of my strength, with my heartbeat slowing down with every passing second, and finally, surrendering to fate. What's life after death? Is there really heaven and hell? If there is, will I rise to heaven or plummet down to endure the horrors of hell? If there isn't such places at all, where will my spirit go? Wander around? Or disintegrate into thin air the minute it leaves my body?

Recently, I bought one korean drama, Goong(or some fuck). Wanted to buy Kurosagi initially, but they didn't have stock, and since so many people testified that Goong is a nice show, I decide to watch it out of boredom. But WTF! THE SHOW SUCKS!! I think it is fucking overrated! I gave up watching it after the 2nd disc. Its damn boring and predicable. What a waste of my money when I could have spent it on something better. *annoyed* I can't fucking stand korean dramas(not all, but most). They use the same plot for every damn show. Its always some peasent girl falling for some rich handsome guy who has a fiance, and then the fiance will scheme to destroy the peasent girl, and later, turns out that the rich boy and peasent bitch are so deeply in love, they are inseperable. Ya, and then the characters start pitying themselves and cry on every single episode for the rest of the show. WTF! I know tears are free, but if you want to waste them, then stuff onion into your eye sockets! Bloody..

Anyway, watched the final episode of Gokusen 2 yesterday. I stayed up late specially for that show. Omg! I can't believe I was tearing while watching. Damn touching! Damn funny. Lol, and hardly any show ever makes me cry before. Gokusen is probably one of the first few.


and I love you - Mr Children